What have i done?
I really don't know i fell deep not knowing what was coming didn't ever expect any of this. The man i love is 29 years old . He says he loves be but his actions say something else
I feel like i can't cry anymore. Its like a bad dream and i can't seem to wake up. I feel like I'm stuck. Time is passing me by and im spending it with someone hella older, i didn't think it would be like this.Im starting to think this was bad.. i should have left when i found out about his real age. I feel so controlled. I thought i would be in schoo doing fun things with friends. I think of the future and try to imagine myself in a dark room at age 30 idk why i just have a feeling. Thinking to myself wow i went through all this shit with him. I feel like i wasted my teenage years with him.. as i type this i can't seem to cry anymore. I feel the tears inside but they aren't coming out WHY? Will he be w be with someone else will i be single and lonely like much people are now a days ?
He's half my age I'm not even 20 yet idk how that makes me feel...Does he feel that way about his life? Does he want me in his life forever ? I wonder but I'm scared to ask i don't know anymore I'm scared of everything i wana run away from this its wrong its always been wrong and i feel like its just now hitting me i met him at 15 and he took advantage of me knowing he was 12 years older wtf dude. Im sometimes happy but most of it im sad. I spend most of my time hoping and not enjoying...
I don't know why this had to happen to me
I don't need you i don't need you but i LOVE YOU
I swear my mind never sleeps I'm always trying to find a solution or an answer for all this but i can't seem to even understand why its happening i shouldn't have never let him in.
Tell me how you feel what you want! why did you chose me.why all the lies? What did i do to deserve all this?
Pour your heart out to me and don't leave anything inside anymore hold my hand and close your eyes and tell me
Are you still there ?
Its night time
And you are no where to be found
I won't look down
I can't see you anywhere where are you in this dark night ....tell me why can't you be more clear i can't see with all these tears...fuck you ahmed
